Taking a break to think about what would make me feel a little calmer, I growled under my breath one more time and again took to my keyboard with purposed fury. I say again because my computer has crashed three times since I've tried to write this post. Like I said, not a good day. I pleaded with my computer: No crashies, no crashies, please no crashies. I threatened it: I swear I will throw you out of the fucking window! Don't make me do it! Don't mess with me! And then I finally submitted. I unplugged the damn thing, took a walk, came back, restarted and... so far so good. I guess we both needed a time out.
I need to remember that although I may feel like it ('cause I'm there, I'm totally there), not everyone or everything I encounter today is a complete asshole. In fact, I may be the asshole. Moreover, I probably am. So, let's all de-asshole. It's a technical process. And it starts with remembering that we're all human, and although we can annoy the hell out of one another, we also show random acts of kindness and love and share joy with each other all of the time. Just typing that helps. There, I feel better already. Chocolate would probably help speed things up a bit, but in the meantime, I'll share a little joy with you-- and we'll all feel better for it.
Now I feel more relaxed. I can quit grinding my teeth down into a fine powder and unclench my fists. I hope that took some stress out of your day, too.